How I'm feeling about the big day...

Tomorrow's the big day! I have been so excited this past week as I countdown the days until Meghan's arrival. I think about the first moment & will hear her cry. I can't wait to see who she looks like! I long to hold her in my arms. My heart will melt as I see Shane holding his daughter for the first time! We'll have such a great family moment when Josiah comes in to see his baby sister. I have no idea how he'll react, but I can't wait!

Then last night came & the nerves kicked in! I had a hard night's sleep as I kept thinking about all the pre-op work they have to do to me. I am so nervous about that epidural. When I was in labor with Josiah & got the epidural, I wanted it! The pain was not that bad because I was in the middle of horrible contractions & it was after so many hours of labor. This time, I'm walking in normal & having a giant needle put into my spine. Yes, I am so nervous! My plan for during the epidural injection is to quote scripture. I pray that God allows me to focus on His word & not the pain.

I went into Josiah's room last night (as it was his last night here being an only child). I laid next to him, rubbing his back as he slept & I just weeped. I know it's the hormones & the emotions of being a woman, but I couldn't control it. I was thinking about the day of his birth & what an amazing gift God gave us. I thought over the milestones he's reached these 2 1/2 years & how I don't understand how he's so big now! I thought about how life is going to change for him very soon. Watching him sleep so peacefully, thinking of so many memories we've had together was such a joy. Thank you, God for helping me remember it was our last night with him alone & for giving me those few minutes to sit quietly with him & think over his life. Man, I love him & am so grateful that God allowed me to be his mom!

Tonight is going to be even harder to sleep! We're going to bed at 8pm because we have to be up by 5:30am to get ready & be at the hospital at 7! That will give me 9 1/2 hours to TRY & sleep! I want to be rested as much as possible. It's hard to do that when your mind is going a mile a minute. Again, I will be praying that God allows us to relax & rest to get prepared for the morning.

Things to pray for us: 1) For a good night's sleep for both Shane and I. 2) For my nerves to be calmed & that I can meditate on God's word as they're doing the pre-op things & the actual surgery. 3) That God keeps Meghan and I safe during the procedure. 4) That no infection occurs due to the surgery

Above is our family of 3 as we know it. As of tomorrow, there will be a new addition! Thank you all for praying. We look forward to introducing our daughter to you!